I haven't written in a while. I haven't thought I needed to. Everything was going pretty well, or at least I thought it was. I wonder if I'll ever stop being in so naive?! If I'll ever learn?! Or if I'll be forced to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. They were saying they hated me, and then they said that everyone else hated me. But when I FINALLY, EVENTUALLY said something she denied it. Said they'd never said they hated me! Bullshit in my opinion! I know they said it. I didn't 'hear' it from someone I was there. And then they go on about MY lies, which were just accidents or stupid mistakes, they weren't lies, I just didn't know what they were talking about! And then they say they have a problem with my "moods". But I don't have moods I was just trying to figure out whether to apologize or tell them to fuck the hell off!!! The first time I decided to just pretend it never happened, the second time I apologized but if it happens again I'm gonna tell them to fuck off!! They talk about my moods?! Well I've lost count of how many times they've been in a shit mood and who was it that helped them?! That'd be me! And this is where helping people gets me into another pit. I'm tired of it.
I'm just tired.
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