Negative

I'm starting to figure out my problem. Starting to get why everything is affecting me like this. It's my fairytale complex. I have this constant perfect life fantasy in the back of my mind. I keep expecting the world to be positive and the way it is in my imagination. But that's so stupid. The world is a piece of crap. And the sooner I accept it the happier I'll be. But how do I turn my back on the one thing that's kept me going when no one else is there.