So it turns out dancing is almost as effective as boxing. I can seriously work off all my pent up anger. And it doesn't have to be actual dancing. It can just be jumping around like a lunatic, that works too. But I still can't get over this whole selfish, all about me thing?! I'm trying to think of times when I'm like that but I just can't. I really don't know when. I try and put other people first and I do it all the time. But apparently I'm not and I have no idea what to make of it. D said it was nothing but I'm a completely different person around her. So is it possible that I'm a selfish bitch?? And how do I stop?! Will I ever even be able to comprehend how?! I'm really confused again.
I'm going to miss Darla and Jace so much. I honestly don't know what I'll do without them. Darla's like my sister and .... I think I love Jace. I never even thought about it before, I always just thought that I thought of him as Darla's brother. But I don't know, maybe I didn't. But now what am I going to do without him? I might never see him again. And Darla; I'm going to be dead, set, lost without her. She's been here with me always, through everything, Casey, my parents, Tyler; what am I supposed to do without her? Who am I supposed to talk to? Who's going to listen to me without judging me?
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO???!!!!
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